I’ve been riding the depression roller coaster most of my life. That’s part of the reason I write this Great List. I need a constant reminder that there is good in the world. Its hard to keep a realistic perspective sometimes. Despite all my best efforts, I’ve been in a bit of a downward spiral for a while. Until this week. As a seasoned depressee, I know that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. What I don’t know is how long the tunnel is. This one was pretty long, but for the first time in what seems like forever, I’m feeling upbeat.
1. All the gratitude in the world goes to my oldest and wisest friend Katy this week. I’m not sure she even knows how much her words helped me. I guess 30 years of friendship really puts you in tune with someone. I told her my problems, she told me the truth in such an insightful way that, for the first time in a while, I was able to accept things and begin to move forward. For those who don’t know what depression feels like, it’s like a complete standstill. You’re trapped in despair with no obvious way out. Katy gave me that bridge out of there this week, and I am soooooooooo grateful for her.
2. It rained in San Diego this week. I’m grateful because the drought in California is very serious right now, but I’m also grateful because rain is a special occurrence to those of us who live in a desert climate, and it makes me really excited when it happens. Perhaps this shower was a symbol for me to wash away what’s been troubling me lately. Whatever the reason, I welcome the clouds and rain.
3. Last weekend Jen invited me to go on “girls day” with her and Leila. I’m not one for leisure shopping, but shopping and lunching with a 4 year old is a totally different experience. Dare I say Leila has the best personality of any kid I know? My favorite part was when (so typical) Leila decided she wanted the loudest, most neon, ugliest dress Target has ever sold, and Jen’s (extremely clever and tactful) mom attempts to convince her to get something else. Jen won, although Leila did pick up a few other rainbow-ish numbers. I’m so grateful for all the kids in my life, but especially these ones that live so close, and keep me laughing regularly.
So yeah, feeling pretty good right about now. I was even able to make a 2 week long schedule/to-do list, which is something I usually do when I’m not super depressed. (Depression turns my brains into scrambled eggs). Looks like these April showers are bringing on figurative May flowers in my mind! Ok, way too cheesy, I know.
Have a great weekend.