It feels like a tornado outside today. We’re experiencing extremely high winds here in Oakland, and it’s kind of matching my mood. The last two weeks have been totally nutso. I feel like I’m being pulled in every direction imaginable, and my emotions are just swirling around furiously like today’s winds. I’m in desperate need of some grounding and self care. The next two weeks are not looking exactly mellow.
1. When life starts to feel out of control, I tend to tell myself that everything is terrible, I have nothing to be grateful for, and it’s all just a giant shit sandwich. It’s not always easy to drag yourself out of a dark place, but the simplest thoughts of gratitude, are usually the ones that make the biggest difference. I am alive. I am healthy (except for this very painful patch of shingles that decided to pop up on my leg last week). My family is alive and well. We have food to eat, and a roof over our heads. Sadly I know too many people who are truly suffering, whether it be illness or other personal tragedy, and I tend to forget how truly Great I have it. These week, I remembered.
2. I got to have a long phone conversation with my oldest and dearest friend Katy this week. It’s rare we actually get to talk on the phone for an extended period of time. Usually it’s a quick text or instant message. She has a small, active son and a new puppy so she’s often got her hands full, and the time difference between us isn’t exactly ideal for phone calls. However, the stars aligned this week and it was such a Great conversation. I think the universe knew I needed her. There’s no one like your best friend for the last 30 years to give you some good, grounding advice. It was far and away the highlight of my week.
3. I was semi-stressed when I left work today because I had a long list of errands, and was running way behind schedule. Number one on my list was getting an oil change since my tire pressure light came on yesterday, and I was due for service anyway. I found some random drive through place and I was in and out in 10 minutes. They checked the oil, showed me the dipstick and told me I was fine and didn’t need oil. Filled up my tires and fluids, charged me $12 and sent me on my way! I’m always Grateful for fast and courteous service. Hopefully this is an indication of how my weekend will go.
On that note, I’m off to enjoy some me time.