The Hubs left this week for our new life in Oakland. I didn’t think it would be a big deal since he’s traveled pretty constantly for work over the last 7 years, and he’ll be home again in less than two weeks for Christmas. However, once all of his clothes were packed, and his empty side of the closet stared at me blankly, I felt a bit differently. He said, “jeez babe, I feel like i’m leaving you or something”, and for the first time in my life, I really understood the sentiment “home is wherever I’m with you”.
This place; San Diego, our home, our wonderful neighborhood that I love so much all kind of lose their luster without him here. In an instant, I was able to let go of all my sentimentality that’s kept me clinging to my current life, and suddenly I’m really looking forward to moving into a temporary, 1 bedroom apartment in a strange city.
1. The reason I’m telling you all this is to express my gratitude not only for the fact that I have a wonderful partner to navigate life with, but also for the self awareness I’ve gained through this process that makes me understand how important he is to me. When we become self absorbed (guilty as charged) we sometimes lose sight of all the people who are holding us up in life. No one is doing it alone, no matter how alone you may feel sometimes, so try to step outside yourself for a moment and be grateful for those who support you.
2. My whole week wasn’t so introspective and dramatic I promise. I went to a really fun wreath making workshop taught by my friend Jill last night, and came home with a beautiful handmade wreath. I’m grateful for this evening for so many reasons beginning with it being a welcome distraction from my hectic life. The creative community in San Diego has been a real joy to be a part of and I loved seeing my friend shine in her element. Anyone who knows me knows that I love making stuff and I can’t think of a better way to spend an evening than trying out a new creative endeavor, while hanging out with fun and hilarious ladies.
3. As I was driving home from my workshop I noticed that all my neighbors along one street who had a bit of an excess tail on their outdoor light display, strung their lights over to the next neighbors house. It was like the entire block was joined together in one long, festive web. I was truly moved by the spirit of the holidays and community in general. I’m so grateful to have been a part of this lovely neighborhood for so long.
I’m gearing up for another action packed weekend. Hope you all are enjoying your holidays so far.