Here we are folks, standing on the cusp of a new year. Although committing to life changes one day of the year a la resolutions isn’t really my thing, I do like to take this time to reflect on the past year, and try to remember where I’ve been, and where I’m going. In retrospect, I learned a lot in 2012. It wasn’t the easiest year I’ve ever faced, but here I am…still alive and kickin’.
No matter how tough, or emotionally aware, or prepared for all life’s challenges I pretend to be, I somehow always end up on a roller coaster of dark spots followed by sunshine. In those dark moments, I turn on myself. If only I had done things differently, If I had said something different, if I had been better, I wouldn’t be here right now. Its so easy to hold yourself to exceptionally high standards, then tear yourself apart when you can’t reach them. What I learned this year is that these standards exist only in my own mind, and that every high and low is still a step in the right direction.
For 2013 and beyond, I promise to be nicer to myself. To have the wisdom to see that the dark moments are lessons for the future, and not punishment for something I did wrong. I choose to accept that my best efforts are good enough, and that my path in life may be bumpy, but its still my own, and appreciate it for whatever it may bring.
“When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you.” -African Proverb
Happy new year friends