Today I called my office to speak to our assistant, Sofia, whom I don’t see very frequently since I work at a home office. She said to me, “Wow Betsy, you sound GREAT!” I said, “really?” and she said, “yes! waaaaay better than the last few times I’ve talked to you” This made me feel great but also got me thinking. I realize that I’ve been in kind of a funk lately. I’ve been a QuickBooks consultant for many years, and always know that this time of the year is hectic and crazy. Each year I try to mentally prepare myself for the onslaught, and each year I feel like I’ve been run over by a truck when its all over. This year I did the same thing. I psyched myself up, I felt focused and energized, and ready to kick some tax season butt! When my Grandma died, it completely derailed me. I’ve managed to wade through the rest of tax season in kind of a haze, but its been the most difficult year for me so far. I’ve realized that I have a hard time dealing with emotional curve balls. I’m a great problem solver. Throw a work related, or practical related curve ball at me, and I’ll be able to work it out without breaking a sweat, but when it comes to bouncing back after an emotional event, I tend to really struggle.
I know just by my energy levels that I’m feeling better, but its great to hear Sofia tell me that I sound better too. Self awareness is so key in being able to live life to the fullest, and this experience has taught me some things about myself that I hadn’t wanted to admit until now. Now that tax season is winding down, my stress level is starting to level out. I hope this will allow me some time to deal with the emotions of my Grandma’s death, but I know that the universe won’t always considerately spread out the tough times in life so I can deal with them one at a time. I hope that I can remember all these feelings the next time I’m in a similar situation, and be able to deal with my emotions more productively.
Anyway, one more thought I’d like to share before my delicious lemon tart recipe; today I was instant messaging with my friend Katie about how lazy I was feeling and how I really didn’t want to go work out. She said to me, “No one ever regrets working out. Lots of people regret NOT working out” Excellent point. She also said, “think of it this way, if you work out, then you can have that extra glass (or bottle) of wine tonight” What a great friend. I did work out, and I’m going to drink that wine in your honor Katie. Thanks for the motivation.
Time to start the weekend! I’ll be enjoying this Meyer Lemon Curd Tart that I made (amazing macadamia/vanilla wafer crust!), as well as some rainy weather and possibly a movie. Hope you all have a great weekend as well!